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when your girlfriend tells you she's thought about sleeping with a customer of hers who happens to be indian soley to spite her racist father and that she may still do it in the future cuz she'd like to see the "priceless" look on her fathers face, and she doesnt understand how you can think there's something just a tad wrong about that, it's time to run away. thankfully, last night i did. lol.

what's up soleone boarders?

good for you holmes..her deep inner issues dUE to her fathers bigotry are a big yield sign. besides the fact that she is openly being a spiteful person towards her father because of his shortcomings means she wouldnt do the same sort of fucked up in the head shit towards you. Get the fuck outta dodge and realize she hears clown music in her head as she walks around on a daily basis. It sounds like this: DUNDUNDADADADA DUNDADADA...SUM REAL WRINGLEYS AND BARNIUM BALEY TYPE SHIT!

too true. it's just one of many things that have had me feeling that pull towards the front door of her house, never to return again. i thought this one ridiculous on so many levels, not just what she's describing but that she felt her partner was the best person to relay it to, particularly the "i may still do it" part...very strange. oh well, another day with new possibilities, and a few rather unique memories from recent days gone by.

The fuck? Is she 12?

worse, 26.

Well maturity doesn't always arrive with age.

well, she's free to spite her father in whatever way she feels would be most effective. i just have this horrible image in my mind of her on her back, doing the deed, thinking of her father and how in that moment she's really sticking it to him.

sorry to share that.

Um, that much spite and I just wouldn't speak to him which would help me feel less bitter.
I am one of those lightswitch people though. I can turn on and off emotion towards people quite easily especially if the people are ignorant bastards. Since having Facebook I have successfully weeded out many people in my life that I did not know had such asinine opinions. If someone doesn't believe in equality than I really just kick them the fuck out of my life. If I didn't I'd brood around imagining throwing them out of windows all day.

this lady follows the teachings of Anton LaVey (the parts she likes at any rate). material individualism etc.

however she is quite the collectivist when it comes to how she feels everybody in the world works together to ruin her life.

i'm not really here to simply rag on the girl. she does have her very kind moments, sometimes very caring moments.

i'm just very happy i'm away from it. like i said, a new day...

She sounds like fun. Maybe she is also a conspiracy theorist. I loathe those people.


*except paranoid skitzophrenics, they can't help that shit.

not in the greater sense no. she doesnt believe in overarching theories, just a heavy distrust of people around her (and she does have some valid reasons) and a very twisted localised point of view that she is adament is the correct means by which to judge people and situations. her ex however, whom she works with, is a massive icke fan though he's only read two icke books, and the type of bloke who NEEDS to tell people about this earth shattering truth he's been privy to, and he takes every opportunity he can to do so.

Oh lol. Have you seen my ex perform lately?

Anyway, I think it's embedded in brains to try and find reasons for why things happen when sometimes there is none. What seems like a pattern to some is not to another who has trained themselves to have logic override that perspective.

I have been wronged by a lot of people....I let go of that shit.

Your ex seems to have a lot of carry on baggage she needs to check before she will ever form a meaningful relationship.

i think she's very set in her ways, even at just 26. very defensive, cant accept that her actions have consequences not just for her but for those around her. and if you take issue with her behaviour or indicate that you have a problem with a situation born from her behaviour, all she hears is that you have a problem, hence its your problem not hers. it's avoidance as a defense mechanism taken to the extreme. and it's terribly immature. i can appreciate she has her very personal reasons for acting in such a way, i'm somewhat sympathetic. and she has ongoing trouble with the ex who's 43 (they got together when she was 23 and he 40, though he made his first move on her when she was just 20) and equally a victim of the world. as such he used to abuse her and still does in certain ways, yet she keeps him around at work. it's far too complicated for me.

but again, i'm done with it and free of it.

the fuck...

z-o and AMG back up in this bitch?

is this 2009 or something?

-magi

he reveals hisself at last

well that was one of the lamest scooby doo reveals ever.

Dude when I was in abusive relationships I blamed MYSELF for putting up with it and staying there.
She could change with time but I know an ice lady who is 65 who blames the world, everything for her own unraveling.

or 2004? Who knows anymore. I still think 1990 was 10 years ago.